Bleed Out


Blue October is my favorite band. I listen to their music almost every day. Today, on my way home from work, I was listening to them and the song Bleed Out came up. All their music strikes deep, that’s why I love it so much, but there are times that some songs hit me in a mood that just really syncs up. Today, that’s this song. The music video for the song makes this a story about a love relationship gone wrong, but it has always been something different for me. There are people in my life that are takers. I’m not going to get into the gritty details of it. But recently, I have reached the point of letting go. I have seriously considered completely walking away from those relationships. I’m not sure that trying to establish new boundaries is worth it for me. But at the same token, I feel so strongly drawn in. It’s a trap that we talk about all the time in my profession. I have seen it for what it is for years. Yet, here I am. It fucking sucks balls. It’s a song about the toxic way people can use others. You can read the lyrics here. But unlike most songs about these kinds of relationships, it focuses on the way that people feel trapped and the way that they feel when they are in these kinds of relationships. Some days, quite a bit as of late, I feel like I am bleeding out. Yep. That’s the bit of cheerful sun shine I have for this snowy morning. But things are changing and they need to. It’s past time. I just wish it didn’t hurt so much.

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Posted on December 17, 2016, in The Pig's Life and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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