Piggie Update 072710
Well, alot has been going on. I am on a medical leave from work because of all the crazy shit that’s been going on inside my head. I’m just not safe to take care of other people right now. It will make the money tight, but I think it’s the best thing for me right now. It will give me time to get myself put together and get my meds evened out. I finally got to see the doctor regarding my meds. He made changes. No surprise there. What I’ve been doing hasn’t been working. I’ve just been getting worse. So, I wasn’t surprised when he changed things around. So, I have to give that time and see how it works. If nothing else, I have slept better yesterday. Its a promising start to things. As far as my symptoms go, they’ve gotten pretty bad. I’ve been hearing people screaming. That could be because of the severe sleep deficit or it could be another emerging symptom. Yeah. It’s been hard. I’ve been having really terrible dreams. People getting hurt or people chasing me. I wake up seriously distressed. My mood has been swinging all over the place too. I go from feeling really good to angry to sad within minutes. The mood cycling in very exahausting. I can’t keep up with myself enough to even process what I’m feeling. It has been hard for the people that are around me. How can I expect them to keep up if I can’t? I’ve been really apathic lately. I’m not sure how to manage that particular symptom. It’s the first time I have ever experienced it. Normally I am bursting with energy and ambition, but lately I have been drained dry. So, the plan is to take things day by day and see where things take me. On another note: I’ve got a new hair style. I cut it short. And I’m in the process of coloring it purple. It takes several stages to get it the color I am looking for. I will try to post some new pictures once I’ve got the color I’m after. Hope things are going well with you guys. I’d love to hear from you all. I seriously miss the vent rants!