Many people have asked me: Who are you? How do I answer this question and encompass all that I love and fear? I struggle to know the answer myself in every day that I am alive. I look. I listen. I taste. I touch. I feel. These things bring me into the world and keep me from sliding away, but they do not define me. I speak and only vaguely capture the things I think. How can I know myself well enough to give that to anyone else? That being said, I’m going to make a few notes about myself anyway.
I write stories about dragons and the fey and dream of things that cannot be. I hope for the endless soul and imagine an eternal life. I believe that I share in the divine through the power of creation; that the Goddess is in all those who are compelled to Make. I am a Maker. Every day that I am alive I strive to create things. These things are my mark, the things that will be left behind for a while after I have died. These are the things that my loved ones will hold when they cannot hold me. I crochet. I sing. I draw. I paint. I Make. Into all these things I pour all that I am and all that I love so that when others come to know these things they will also know me. I believe Making is love. When you weave yourself into a thing you give yourself to those you hold dearest. And if they love you, they will be able to call you back and up out of the things that you have created. In that way, we live through our creations and our love. It is why I Make.
I am Myself
I am a Wife
Blessed with love
I am a Mother
Endowed with divinity
Through the power of creation
I am a Daughter
Brought into this world
With unending hope
And the promise of the future
I am a Sister
Made fierce and strong
While forged with kindness
Protector and protected
Spiraling together forever
I am a Nurse
Holding out the hands of healing
And offering the sick comfort
And the dying love
Knowing that through this
All things are healed and made whole
I am a Writer
Creating myself and world
Sharing the inner depths of humanity
Bringing together the divine
And the humble mortal
I tell the story of the Goddess
And am remembered forever
A common Japanese proverb “Hana yori dango” (花より団子, “Hana yori dango”? which translates as “dumplings rather than flowers”) refers to a preference for practical things rather than aesthetics.
Men spend their lives in anticipations,—in determining to be vastly happy at some period when they have time. But the present time has one advantage over every other—it is our own. Past opportunities are gone, future have not come. We may lay in a stock of pleasures, as we would lay in a stock of wine; but if we defer the tasting of them too long, we shall find that both are soured by age. -Charles Caleb Colton-
THat was a WHOLE lot of something in which I could understand… I mean, when I read the first paragraph, I was surprised. I AM like that, but I did not realise it. I tried to describe it, but I had difficulty pointing my finger to it. The 2nd para made me stop, for while not all in which you wrote are the same for me, MOST are. TOO many.
divine….Love is your inner wealth, seed of which you bring in your closed hands to plant in this world to make it a tree of happiness.
you are tree of happiness and mirror of God.
love all..
Well it sounds like you have your hands full. We have all been thinking about you and worried. Hopefully things will settle down for you soon and you will be feeling better. It is scary and frustrating when things happen that you have no control over, but you seem to have a great attitude Jacq, and we all support you. If you need anything please let me know.
Katie
Thanks. It has been so wonderful to hear from everyone and know that people are thinking about me. I have been missing all you cedar ridge nuts. After 3 weeks out I am stir crazy and this work-aholic is so ready to come back to work! feel free to update others at cedar ridge, I don’t have everyone on FB and you can share this site too if they want to read the updates.
I will let everyone know and offer them the site as well. I know how you feel. I went out for surgery and then ended up with pneumonia and ended up out for 6 weeks. Not fun and OMG was I bored by the end of it. Of course that was after I started feeling better. LOL
Seems like the idea of feeling better is a dim hope
Thanks for passing on the info. I know people keep asking, which I find very heartening, but its hard to keep up with everyone >.<
Hey Piglet, I have been wondering how you have been. I talked to monkey on the cell, she updated me on things. I worry about you. Been thinking of you and hope everything is working out. Keep me posted, I hope all is well. I will keep checking in on this site. Let me know if there is anything i can do. Talk to you later. Peanut.
Thanks for thinking about me. Its been nice to know that people are thinking about me while I have been out. I miss all you guys! Things have been ok. I am doing better with the recent med changes. I don’t think there is anything for anyone to do at this point; unless you know someone with a money tree
Just playing the waiting game for the test results. Hopefully they will come back looking good and I will be back to work and harassing everyone soon!